If you are any monster, you're a cuddle monster and when you get mad I will buy you grapes and make you a cheesecake and all will be right in the world. <3

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The Megas: Because sex does wear blue.

I always get upset at this time of year because I can't stop thinking about Tony. He was one of my best friends in highschool and he took his own life in the woods alone at this time without a note or a goodbye. =[
I found myself crying behind my sunglasses at the bus stop on the ninth wishing I could turn back time and do something to help him. =/

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The Megas: Because sex does wear blue.

Every Doctor Who episode leaves me crying. And basically any episode of any series. And any movie. I'm a fucking crybaby.

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Guess what, I bounced back. Got a job on campus, started a cross training regimen with my roommate, and made out with an Israeli national during a meteor shower. Everything's coming up Milhouse!

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"My job? Toilets 'n boilers, boilers 'n toilets. Plus that one boilin' toilet. Fire me if'n you dare. "

Is it weird that despite having a lot of things wrong in my life, like being an out of shape, unemployed, inexperienced, untrained college dropout with no motivation or aim in life, I don't get stressed out or depressed? The "I don't give a shit" persona I put on really isn't a persona. I legitimately don't care about a lot of things, my own problems included. Like, I'm hardwired to not be able to be down on myself, and I feel like I can't talk about that because 3/4 of the people I know on the internet have serious depression issues and it would seem like I'm bragging or something. I just can't understand it, I don't "get" depression. I've had bad days before but that's all they were. Bad days. Felt like shit, went to bed, brand new day; felt just fine.

Maybe some of you guys will just think "man fuck jt what an asshole how come he gets to be happy all the time" but it's just how I operate. Any negativity I have is almost always fleeting and short-lived.

Lucky bastard

It's not really a bad thing. I don't know the exact percentage but a lot of people drag stupid shit out.

Which brings me to my next point: I'm shrugging off more and more stuff as time goes on. I don't know what the breaking point of my 'don't really give a fuck about that thing' is.

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Rest in peace Trevor

So this weird thing happens every so often while I'm sleeping. It feels like someone just jammed a knife through the back of my bad leg. Whatever that meaty muscle is. I don't know if that's a quad or whatever. But, yeah, I'm awake by the every so often and it is the most painful thing I can ever think of. I don't know why it's happening either.

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"Divide by Sharpedo? Pft, more like devoured by Sharpedo!" - Jay C; MAGfest 8

You should get that checked by a doctor, may be a muscle problem or whatnot.

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Above the knee - Hamstring. Below the knee - Calf

Given all that happened to it, I'm not surprised. My guess would be that as it's still 'healing' (deep muscle injuries can take a long time to fully knit back together, even if it's all ok on the flesh), it may be more susceptible to cramping. It sounds a lot like a bad cramp to me, so I think the best thing to do would be to STRETCH it, and do any physical therapy they gave you CONSISTENTLY. As much as you can, but not more than once every 2 days. Unless they gave you a particular schedule for exercising your leg.

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I feel like every time I get online everyone logs off. And when I post in a thread it starts to die.

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Why do you keep posting then? Thread killer!

Sometimes I feel as though I straddle too many lines. Amongst conservatives, I'm fairly liberal and challenge their opinions. But amongst liberals, since I am less liberal then them (I'm more a moderate than anything else), I try to challenge their opinions equally as much. At the very least I try very hard to get either side to see the logic behind the other - both think they are right because they are following their own logic.

And it's not just politics, it's many things. With some of my friends who I spend fun time with, I'm always the 'logical one'. But in my classes/with fellow peers in the scientific environment I am delving in, I am not the logical one... I can easily jump to conclusions and find myself banking on subjective issues.

Always, something draws me to play the devils advocate. I don't even realize it until after I'm mid way through making a post/point or usually even later. But whenever I read something opinionated, I almost involuntarily think about the counterpoints and latch onto the assumptions they make - even if I agree with them normally.

Makes me appear a lot more confrontational than I really am. Or maybe I really am that confrontational.

I'm pretty good about knowing where I really stand, even though I dance around with both sides of the issue.

But sometimes I wonder if I dance around in the borderline region of moderation because I am not strong in any particular area.

Which brings me to another confession that's probably the underlining notion to the first. Sometimes I feel as though I am mediocre in many things, but not good at any one. Many say I'm smart, but I know all too well the many that are smarter than me. Compared to many I am good at getting the grades, but not necessarily in the practical knowledge. At the same time, compared to others, I'm not even close to the top of the grades scale. I'm not bad at the humanities, but it's certainly not my strong point. So I'm majoring in science. But compared to many scientists, I feel quite illogical and inept at doing my proper research.

This has always been an issue that's bugged me, and I doubt it will ever go away. I can deal with it, but I'm interested in seeing what others have to say.

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I quite literally told almost this exact same thing to my wife last night.

Ironically, I'm kind of on the fence with this one. On one hand, I find it admirable that you're so flexible that you can see things from both sides and aren't rigidly stuck in any one narrow-minded camp.

On the other, I've had this thought pestering me for a while that maybe all this "I see what you're saying" crap is the result of society losing its conviction, and it makes us all seem rather weak-minded and wishy-washy. Myself included, considering how I feel about this whole thing. As much as I admire flexibility and open-mindedness, I also admire passion and strong-willed people who aren't easily swayed by a simple breeze.

That being said, I think everyone suffers from some level of that jack-of-all-trades feel. Being well-rounded has its merits, but being down on yourself for it doesn't!